Who Will Save Me

Wretched soul that I am, who will save me from myself. For I do the things I don’t want to do and don’t do the things that I want to do. 

In searching for truth which is the person we know as Jesus Christ, exposure to who we really are is inevitable. We tend to be more ready to see with sober judgement the faults of others rather than to examine ourselves to see if our own thoughts reflect our Father’s thoughts and feelings. 

The glory of the Father that we experience continues to influence us and life in Him surely is experiencing glory to glory. However, that glory is not always comfortable as we are coming to recognize truth and live in it. In living in truth, we find ourselves living in Him and in the glory of finding our way. 

Yet, our souls that tend to wander out of the mind of Christ back into the natural pull and tug at us in a way that leaves us frustrated and confused until we remember to set our mind on things above and remind us that that guy is not in charge. If we let him be we have moved out of living in the land of the living which is living life in Christ or the Spirit of Christ. 

In the joy of discovering His Presence and rhapsody of being where He is nothing in my spirit wants to be separated but this wretched flesh won’t leave me alone and constantly tries to reengage me in the life I agreed to die to living  While I buried him long ago, his influence tries to get me to go back and live in lies he participated in  

In Our Father’s Presence there is fullness of joy. When our minds are stayed on Him we live in perfect peace but my soul loves people who are attached to the world even as the world has lost its appeal to me.  So I find myself longing to live in love with the person but hindered by their love for the world. I want to pull them out but alas, they are enamored. My soul tempts me to participate in the world just to be close to them.

So, I find myself in pain for I am separated from them for I cannot for anyone reattach myself to the world that keeps me from experiencing the glory of our Father’s love and Presence. 

I make up my mind that I must move forward pressing onward for the prize that is in Christ Jesus but find myself in mourning for those I have been separated from. This is the hardest of all paths…to leave that which is behind and press forward to my call in Christ, Jesus  My soul must learn to love those who are surrendered in Jesus  

Love never fails so I hold onto knowing Father who isn’t willing for any of us to perish and so long-suffering power guides me into hope that restoration will eventually come to all those I am temporarily separated from because of the pull of the world. 

The pain is real and drives me to resolve myself to come back into rest in knowing the finished work of Christ is at work in the world to destroy its destruction. 

I cannot fix it. Religion had me believe I could but the Spirit has declared that His work has to tear down that which the soul loves so His work will bring them and me to surrender. I can never fully represent Him in Spirit and in Truth if I give them my power  

Here we are, holding ourselves accountable to surrender to His perfect will and plan even in the pain of living apart from them until the worlds destruction loses its power. 

I can and I must live in death to what my soul wants for it would choose to honor its desires to lust to do life with those I love whether they surrender to life in Christ or not. 

At times if I go by how I feel I would turn back and lose hope for my heart breaks to do life with those my soul loves but I know the truth is they are living in that which produces death and not life. I choose life for He is the One who will ultimately leads me into the finished work of His salvation. 

Selah